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              It’s been like eons since I’ve last updated my blog. I need to vent my emotions down here. I can’t bear the weight anymore. It’s affecting my everyday choices.

But it’s manageable, I am just ranting. Thanks for the shrink. Thanks, but no thanks!

I believe if I am able to share this, I might have a peace of mind. I used to resort to sublimation, but it’s too much. I am overwrought with too much defense mechanism. Tension is building up. Sooner, I am one human volcano ready to spew unwanted lava. Whatever lava.

There’s a point in my life when I was free from confusion and life’s uphill battles. So many misdirections and distractions were posed as STALLED. A point where there is spiritual guidance, right a wrong, and just feel good.  But now I tell you, I am confused. Yes I am. I tried new things which can somehow help my future, but I wanted to be independent and part of which is to look for a job. I’m already having my Nursing Reviews for December’s Nursing Licensure Examination. I have unexpectedly high scores. I am not the brightest, but I passed most of the exams. How can I not appreciate the good news? How can I be so insensitive? How can I easily forget the efforts I’ve done, for me to pass those exams. Damn me. I wanted to have a job and focus on the review. Oh well! A day won’t end without sleep. Problems always come with a solution. Hold still and don’t give up.

(I used to be indecisive, but I’m not sure anymore. Anything but. Hahahha) Wala lang Happy Weekend Guys!