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Where do you go with your broken heart in tow
What do you do with the left over you
and how do you know when to let go
where does the good go
where does the good go

look me in the eye and tell me you dont find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you wont go
look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
look me in the heart and unbreak broken it wont happen

its love that leaves and breaks
the seal of always thinking you would be
real happy and healthy strong and calm
where does the good go
where does the good go

where do you go when your in love and the world knows
how do you live so happily while i am sad and broken down
what do you say it’s up for grabs now that your on your way down
where does the good go
where does the good go

look me in the eye and tell me you dont find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you wont go
look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
look me in the heart and unbreak broken it wont happen

it’s love that leaves and breaks
the seal of always thinking you would be
real happy and healthy strong and calm
where does the good go
where does the good go

(guitar solo)

Look me in the eye and tell me you dont find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me that you wont go
look me in the eye and promise no love is like our love
look me in the heart and unbreak broken it wont happen

its love that leaves and breaks
the seal of always thinking you would be
real happy and healthy strong and calm
where does the good go
where does the good go

it’s love that leaves and breaks
the seal of always thinking you would be
real happy and healthy strong and calm
where does the good go
where does the good go

where does the good go
where does the good go
where does the good go
where does the good go

(look me in the eye)
where does the good go
(and tell me you dont find me attractive)
where does the good go
(look me in the heart)
where does the good go
(and tell me you wont go)
where does the good go
(look me in the eye)
where does the good go
(and promise no love is like our love)
where does the good go
(look me in the heart)
where does the good go
(and unbreak broken)
where does the good go
(it wont happen)

where does the good go?

A Higher Calling

In the operating room of a large metropolitan hospital, a young nurse was completing his first day on the job. “You’ve only removed eleven sponges, Doctor,” he said to the surgeon closing an incision after surgery. “We used twelve.”
“I removed them all,” the doctor declared, “We’ll close the incision now.”
“No,” the nurse objected. “We used twelve sponges.”
“I’ll take the responsibility,” the doctor said grimly. “Now suture!”
“You can’t do that!” the nurse blurted out. “Think of the patient.”
Just then the doctor smiled, lifted his foot, and showed the nurse the twelfth sponge. “You’ll do,” he said. He had been testing his integrity – and he had it. This story illustrates a key component of integrity: having the courage of your convictions – sticking to your guns, doing what you believe is right, and not fearing to speak out. Such actions are sorely needed. We need to witness a reemergence of integrity as one of the predominant values in the collective human character.
Those who do have integrity and consistently try to exercise it have discovered something the rest of the world ought to know: Integrity makes life easier, as well as more joyful and powerful.

Living with other people’s expectation is the worst feeling and experience of them all. I’ve just started working two weeks ago and my family’s expecting me to work as an OFW in the Middle East. It’s not that I’m afraid of going there. I was never afraid of going to other places with my own self. I’ve tried it before and now I’m not gonna be lost. I have faith.

I’ve been waiting for an opportunity to be able to work in a hospital. Now, I’m actually working there but unpaid. For me, It’s not about being paid or unpaid, it’s about the pack of experience that I’d been through. It’s a preparation, testing one’s self-awareness and to have clear thoughts of what is going to be working in a hospital with license already. In simple terms, BEING PROFESSIONALLY RESPONSBILE. My rantings here will just be put to futility coz as expected they will never learn. A term we called “SOPHOPHOBIA”, and i’m referring to my family.

Please give me time to finish these 3 months as a nurse volunteer. This will just be a minute impluse that travels in your brain because you have this unrealistic expectations. You would rather spend time watching and waiting for those nonesense, boring, flat shows on TV than waiting for my 3 months of experience. You don’t deal with reality when, fact-of-the-matter, you’ve wasted half of your life. You’re richly living like a MOB, APATHETIC, and SHEER IGNORANCE that reveals when you guys started to talk. bwahahahhaha

A message from a friend of mine really got me thinking . . .

Some truths are hard to accept. .

But it opens our hearts to the magic of life. . .

and that is the strength from tears,

and faith from nothingness.

hmmm this is as far as i could remember:

1. Heparin - Protamine Sulfate (in Heaven there is Peace)

2. Warfarin - Vitamin K (In War there is Killing)

3. Narcotic Analgesics: Morphine and Demerol - Naloxone Hydrochloride (Narcan)

4. Atropine Sulfate - Pilocarpine

5. Streptokinase - Aminocaproic Acid ( Amicar)

6. Calcium Channel Blocker Verapamil - Calcium

7. Paracetamol (Acetaminophen) - NAC (N-Acetylcysteine)

8. Digoxin - Digitoxin Immune Fab (Digibind)

9. Tricyclic Antidepressants - Sodium Bicarbonate

10.  Magnesium Sulfate - Calcium Gluconate (Just remember MCdo)

11. Isoniazid - Pyridoxine

12. Cyanide Poisoning - Sodium Nitrate

13. Extrapyramidal Reactions - Diphenhydramine Hydrochloride and Benztropine Mesylate

14. Iron - Deferoxamine

15. Carbon Monoxide Poisoning - Oxygen

They who drink beer will think beer. I’m not as think as you drunk I am. An alcoholic is anyone you don’t like who drinks more than you do. I am a drinker with writing problems. Always remember that I have taken more out of alcohol than alcohol has taken out of me. Alcoholism is the only disease that you can get yelled at for having. Alcohol is the anesthesia by which we endure the operation of life. When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading. I drink therefore I am. Alcohol is living proof that God loves us and wants us to be happy. Reality is an illusion created by a lack of alcohol. I can’t die until the government finds a safe place to bury my liver. Irish Coffee is the perfect breakfast because it contains all four adult food groups: fat, sugar, caffeine and alcohol. I’m not as think as you drunk I am. Not all chemicals are bad. Without chemicals such as hydrogen and oxygen, for example, there would be no way to make water, a vital ingredient in beer. There are better things in life than alcohol, but alcohol makes up for not having them.

Instruction does much, but encouragement does everything.

              It’s been like eons since I’ve last updated my blog. I need to vent my emotions down here. I can’t bear the weight anymore. It’s affecting my everyday choices.

But it’s manageable, I am just ranting. Thanks for the shrink. Thanks, but no thanks!

I believe if I am able to share this, I might have a peace of mind. I used to resort to sublimation, but it’s too much. I am overwrought with too much defense mechanism. Tension is building up. Sooner, I am one human volcano ready to spew unwanted lava. Whatever lava.

There’s a point in my life when I was free from confusion and life’s uphill battles. So many misdirections and distractions were posed as STALLED. A point where there is spiritual guidance, right a wrong, and just feel good.  But now I tell you, I am confused. Yes I am. I tried new things which can somehow help my future, but I wanted to be independent and part of which is to look for a job. I’m already having my Nursing Reviews for December’s Nursing Licensure Examination. I have unexpectedly high scores. I am not the brightest, but I passed most of the exams. How can I not appreciate the good news? How can I be so insensitive? How can I easily forget the efforts I’ve done, for me to pass those exams. Damn me. I wanted to have a job and focus on the review. Oh well! A day won’t end without sleep. Problems always come with a solution. Hold still and don’t give up.

(I used to be indecisive, but I’m not sure anymore. Anything but. Hahahha) Wala lang Happy Weekend Guys!

Sublimation as per definition is the transformation of unwanted impulses into something less harmful. This can simply be a distracting release or may be a constructive and valuable piece of work.

When we are faced with the dissonance of uncomfortable thoughts, we create psychic energy. This has to go somewhere. Sublimation channels this energy away from destructive acts and into something that is socially acceptable and/or creatively effective.

Many sports and games are sublimations of aggressive urges, as we sublimate the desire to fight into the ritualistic activities of formal competition. Just remember that getting angry can be so luxurious, you’ll not in control. So guys sublime!